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EXCERPT FROM THE
BOOK:
MOST PEOPLE TALK
BULLSHIT -
One Primate's Search
For Intelligent Life (GENESIS)
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
Insanity Or God Given
Ability?
It was during my time at the trailer park that I started
thinking again about the extra-ordinary mystical experience that
I had at Cherry Point. I felt that perhaps achieving these
states of non-ordinary reality would be crucial with helping me
to improve my physical and mental performance, and vice versa.
At night before I went to sleep, I started to increase my
ability to “extend” myself beyond my body, although most of the
time I failed and fell right to sleep. I would come close, but
something would startle me and jolt me back into my body.
Usually, I dozed off and then later in the night, the same
symptoms would come over me again. Normally, not as strong as my
first experience, and as intense as the one at Cherry Point;
still it was unmistakable. After reading or hearing about these
experiences, a lot of people would think of a number of mental
dysfunctions that I could have been suffering from.
It’s understandable. There are various types of schizophrenia,
sleep paralysis, temporal lobe epilepsy, as well as an
over-active imagination, hallucinations caused by environmental
factors, extrapolation and the desire to see wishful thinking
manifested, et cetera. We are all subject to most and I can cite
some situations where the likelihood is, some of my experiences
were due to some of the reasons listed above.
But, for me, an OBE rarely happened during broad daylight, while
fully awake and alert. They occurred on restless nights when I
could not sleep and, yes, they have happened when I was waking
up.
I have had sleep paralysis while waking from dreams and
sometimes the dreams have continued. During these moments,
there are none of the other bodily or sensory sensations that I
have experienced during an OBE. I have wrestled with those other
possibilities and have, for the most part, weeded them out.
Mental illness does not run in my family and I did not tamper
with drugs.
It’s true that I had been deprived of food and forced to endure
a variety of deprivations and hardships, but during those
periods of life I did not experience anything remotely mystical.
Perhaps I was too concerned with survival to give it a thought.
Perhaps it was because these mystical experiences are more
likely to happen when a person is living more holistically.
In addition, I’ve had x-rays of my brain that show I’m free of
any gross abnormalities, such as tumors, lesions, or missing
sections. I have also subjected myself to extensive personality
and mental tests, as well as a variety of tests to see how
truthful I am, given by experts in the mental health field.
Also, what I have experienced has been written in thousands of
publications ad nauseam, in every culture throughout the
world. In addition, I have spoken to countless people who have
experienced many of the states I have and the majority of them
got along quite well in the world.
Regardless, many people would still feel more comfortable
labeling me as mad as a hatter. So be it, but the fact is it
would be years before I truly descended into madness. Aside from
this, the pursuit and experiences that are questionable seem to
add more color and depth to every aspect of my life.
At any rate, whenever I got stuck in my training, this type of
meditation often helped me to get past plateaus.
Within a month of my vigorous routine I increased all of my
lifts by forty pounds in the same rep range at the same
bodyweight. To a lot of people who are uninitiated to weight
lifting, this may not seem like a lot, but I can assure you
performing ten repetitions with two hundred and fifteen pounds
in the standing front press at such a light bodyweight is world
class level, especially back in 1977. Anyway, both types of my
training seemed to complement each other.
Out Of My Body Or Flight
Of Fancy?
As happy as I was about my progress in strength, I was intrigued
about my growing experiences in the non-physical realms. One
night while I was resting on the couch in the living room of my
trailer, I decided try to liberate myself from my body again. It
was at dusk and the only light came from the TV, which was
turned down low. After a bit, the same familiar symptoms were
occurring. I felt myself released and looked down at my body on
the couch, quickly looking around the room to be sure everything
was where it was suppose to be just before I went through the
ceiling of my trailer.
I had never left the house in this state before and now I was
outside my trailer. I felt elated, but a little bit of fear was
starting to creep in. I pushed it out of my mind, as I had
learned that the fear of the body or ego could break the
experience. It was an odd feeling to be rising above my trailer.
I was
looking down as a bat or a bird might; soaring high above my
trailer; I decided to stop my progress. I thought it best to
slow down and get my bearings, not wanting my trailer to get too
far out of sight. The moon was full and light was coming from
the other trailers in the park. There were also lights along the
highway where cars moved up and down Charlestown Rd.
Visibility was good. My poor vision had been replaced by what I
assumed to be superior vision. I didn’t see any energy fields as
I had during my one experience in Cherry Point, but this didn’t
bother me at the moment.
From my elevation, I could see people taking nighttime strolls
around the trailer park and at some of the stores nearby. When I
flew or floated lower I could see through other people’s windows
and see them hustling and bustling, cleaning, having late
dinners or simply sitting and watching their TV’s.
I was compelled to fly higher. I was not comfortable flying out
of sight of my trailer park, but wanted to experiment and fly
around the vicinity. I would use my body as if it were an
airplane.
I could not see a double-body as I have on other occasions. To
tell the truth, I was more enthralled being outside my residence
for the first time. I could feel a body instead of only having a
feeling of remote viewing that I have experienced on many
occasions. It was for this reason that I decided to use my
seemingly solid body as if it were subject to the laws of
aerodynamics. Perhaps, I thought, I had these abilities or,
perhaps, there were limitations.
It seemed as if I could speed up or slow down by simply desiring
it. I would turn left by bending at the waist to the left and I
did the opposite to turn right. To propel up I had to bend
backwards and, of course, the opposite to descend. A few times I
tried moving at high speed while combining left or right turns,
much the way I envisioned a fighter would perform.
Real of Not, This Is Fun!!
I remember my new body spinning wildly at high speed. It was
very scary when I accelerated beyond what my normal senses were
able to adjust to. I think these limitations were ones I put on
myself. Half way through my flight I could sense a presence to
my left and this presence stayed with me the entire flight. It
was tough to see, because it was not keeping even with me.
Instead, it was back far enough to where its head was level with
my hips and was also cloaked so as to appear as a shadowy
figure. After my initial awareness of it, my alarm subsided
since it did not attack, but rather only followed. I had the
impression the entity was acting in the capacity of guide or
observer.
Though I was reticent to fly out of sight of the trailer park, I
flew higher and higher until I could barely see a speck of light
that I could distinguish as landmark very close to the park. I
was so high, I could see a very slight curvature of the Earth
and the lights of urban development as far as my eyes could see.
I even saw a commercial airplane in the distance that was close
enough to read “American Airlines” on. I assumed it was going to
or from the Philadelphia Airport.
It seemed odd, no matter how fast or slow I went,
I
could not discern any breeze or feel any coolness from the night
air.
I only sensed acceleration or deceleration during my flight.
Even though I felt suddenly compelled to go back home, I made my
way at a leisurely pace. I floated down, watching the Earth
slowly coming closer.
I entered through the roof of my trailer and remember getting
only a quick glimpse of the room and my prone body before I was
in my body, totally alert.
My body felt heavy and confining, yet part of me was glad to be
back. I had not yet opened my eyes, but somehow I could see the
entity that had been following me. In the deep light of the
living room the TV screen was showing only a test pattern. A
voice was saying that this was a test of the emergency
broadcasting system.
“It
was only a test!”
The Mysterious Companion
I sensed a presence in the living room of my trailer. My
non-ordinary vision could make out an entity.
The
entity seemed very tall, almost as tall as the ceiling.
I
would estimate it was about six foot nine or ten, with
a
large head, though I could not see any distinguishing features;
though I could not be sure, the head may have been covered by a
helmet. It also seemed to be wearing
a
close fitting outfit that was unlike any I had ever seen. There
was also a cape or robe that was draped over the large shoulders
of the entity and was shorter in the front than in the back.
The evaluation of the entity took only a second or so, because
its presence in my room frightened me so much that I yelled and
leapt up, rushing to turn on the overhead light, though I could
see everything clearly in the room by the light from the TV. I
guess the primitive part of us that is frightened by the
supernatural is most comforted by bright light, the brighter the
better, perhaps hoping to scare away anything bad.
Standing in the now bright living room, I was still breathing
hard from the terror I had felt. The test pattern was still on
and the voice came back.
“Please do not be alarmed. This was only a test!”
My mind mused reflexively, “It was only a test!” Then the
station showed the American flag and played the “Star Spangled
Banner,” before shutting off for the night to the sounds and
sight of white noise and static.
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