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EXCERPT FROM THE BOOK:
Merv Griffin And My First OBE
Dear God I was
dead tired.
The living room
had heavy drapes over the windows, so the only light came from
the few rays that managed to get through. There was also a
small amount of light coming from the TV. The Merv Griffin Show
was on, but because the volume was low, I could barely hear what
was being said. I laid down on the couch and my cat curled up on
my ankles, ecstatically clawing my ankles and purring loudly.
After settling
on the couch, I went through the normal routine of relaxing
every fiber of my being.
I decided to skip
visualization, wanting instead for my body and mind to melt into
stillness and silence. My body took on the familiar sensation of
wax melting into liquid.
Then for the
first time in my life, I felt a vibration throughout my body; I
could also hear frequency or harmonic noise in tandem with the
vibratory feeling coursing throughout. The feeling and sound of
the vibration kept getting stronger and louder. Every synapse in
my body was singing and my circuits were lighting up much more
intensely than any previous sexual experience. It felt as if
every atom in my body was individually vibrating and yet in
synchronicity with each other.
The feeling
became so strong that I could not feel my cat scratching me, nor
could I hear the television. A glow started to form inside my
head. It increased in brightness – also much brighter and more
golden than during those mystical states of sexual pleasure I
felt with Honey and Carleta.
As the
brightness in the interior of my skull intensified, so did the
feeling and loudness of the frequency thrumming my nervous
system.
At one point, the
glowing of the golden light within my skull became so bright, I
thought that if it had come from an external source, my eyes
would probably have been destroyed; yet it caused me no pain.
Eventually, all
there was in the universe was brilliant golden light and the
harmonic sounds of all my atoms. They felt as though they were
at maximum vibrating frequency, as if the atoms of my body were
moving away from each other. (Although at times I think the
increased vibrations kept the atoms together).
Suddenly, I
felt as if my soul or energy-self was slipping from my body,
while my thoughts seemed to come from outside my skull as I was
coming out of my body. Thoughts were now three feet above my
skull and I felt filled with bliss. My energy-self felt very
powerful, yet part of me, perhaps my brain stem started to feel
the terror of dying. There was none of the closure that I felt
from orgasm.
There was not the
blue-blackness of sweet oblivion, nor the colors lapping at the
corners of my senses.
There was only
the fear that if I slipped all the way out, I would never be
able to get back. I tried to move my physical body, but
couldn't; and then by focusing every bit of my will on my toes,
I was finally able to move them and shot back in.
I leapt off the
couch yelling, "Holy Christ!"
The sounds of
the Merv Griffin Show and my cat yowling in fear came back
loudly. This experience unnerved me due to the intensity of
pleasure and because nothing in life had prepared me for such an
experience: no dream, no state of hypnosis, and no flights of
fancy.
I was afraid
for my sanity, thinking perhaps I had experienced a psychotic
break from reality. This thought scared the hell out of me. I
did not know whom I could talk to about my experience or fears.
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